Am I finally growing up and maturing??
Am I in the flow?
One would think that after 56 years that these would not be questions that I would be asking. To be clear I do not equate growing up with being staid and stuffy but with having the maturity to handle what life throws at you with grace.
I was at an appointment today and I received a number of compliments. My previous habit was to make some self-deprecating responses, make a joke about what was said or even put myself down.
Mostly this was done because I was uncomfortable receiving compliments. Some of this is due to the way that I was raised. Above all, you did not want people to think that you were “full of yourself”. I have been uncomfortable showing confidence because I did not want it to be misconstrued as being cocky. It has always been so much easier for me to give a compliment than to receive one.
Well, I am happy to report that today after I received my compliments I just said, Thank You! I did not add any additional off the cuff responses or make light of what was said. Reading the Law of Giving is starting to rub off on my subconscious.
I did not even realize what I had done until after the appointment was over and I was reflecting how things went. Sometimes change comes in baby steps, I may not realize how much I have actually changed until I take the time to reflect back to how I was. Sometimes the amount of change needed is very small, just a tweak, to make a huge difference in the outcome.