These last 2 weeks have been more difficult for me.
I have had bronchitis. Â I have also really missed the webinar this week. Â I have also missed talking with my tribe on Wednesday evening and my mastermind. Â I also missed a few homework assignments.
This has made me question: What am I going to do once this class is over? Â Is my old blueprint going to take over again? Do I persist and keep pushing towards change and improvement? Are the habits that I have been building going to be strong enough?
The other thing that happened is that I was verbally abused by one of my clients at work this week. Â What is going on? Â I have been good about doing my homework and reading my DMP. Â What have I been thinking that would bring about this situation? Â I remained calm during their outburst. Â This incident has made me question what I may be thinking. Â It must be something deeper that I am unaware of. Â Is it my old blueprint making itself known again? Â Am I taking one step forward and two steps back? Â Was this a result of a lifetime of negative thought? Â If events in my life are a result of my thoughts then what have a been thinking to bring this incident about?
I am half way thru this program now and I thought I would be seeing a greater change in myself and my conditions. Â Do I have unrealistic expectations?
I know I have made some improvement judging from the change in my score on my self-assessment test. Â Am I expecting my life to be puppy dogs and butterflies?