These last 2 weeks have been more difficult for me.
I have had bronchitis. I have also really missed the webinar this week. I have also missed talking with my tribe on Wednesday evening and my mastermind. I also missed a few homework assignments.
This has made me question: What am I going to do once this class is over? Is my old blueprint going to take over again? Do I persist and keep pushing towards change and improvement? Are the habits that I have been building going to be strong enough?
The other thing that happened is that I was verbally abused by one of my clients at work this week. What is going on? I have been good about doing my homework and reading my DMP. What have I been thinking that would bring about this situation? I remained calm during their outburst. This incident has made me question what I may be thinking. It must be something deeper that I am unaware of. Is it my old blueprint making itself known again? Am I taking one step forward and two steps back? Was this a result of a lifetime of negative thought? If events in my life are a result of my thoughts then what have a been thinking to bring this incident about?
I am half way thru this program now and I thought I would be seeing a greater change in myself and my conditions. Do I have unrealistic expectations?
I know I have made some improvement judging from the change in my score on my self-assessment test. Am I expecting my life to be puppy dogs and butterflies?