Well, I have made it up to week 4 and I have to say that I have had my old habits come up and talk to me this week.
I have not thought about quitting but I have caught myself not giving 100%.  I thought to myself: it won’t really matter if I don’t do the reading tonight or at lunchtime.  I am happy to report that I caught myself and did the work.  Why am I doing this if not to make changes?  People who have completed the course, like it enough to do it again and lives have been changed for others.  I figure they must have learned something that changed their life.  I want to learn and change things in my life.  In order to do that I must change my thoughts and habits.
The other thing that I am working on is Living in the Moment. Â Even when I am doing something that I really enjoy I am not present 100% because I am always thinking of everything I need to do as soon as I am done. Â I have to tell myself that everything that needs to get done will get done and there is plenty of time.
I have caught myself saying “do it now” off and on thru the day and it has made a huge difference. Now instead of having my tasks hanging over my head all day long I am getting a lot of them done right away and then I don’t have that constant pressure all day long.
I am also reading Mark J’s book Standing Tall (excellent book by the way) and there is a phrase in there that really struck me.
I no longer measure life by the number of breaths that I take but by the moments that take my breath away!
I want to live in the moment so that I truly enjoy those special moments in life as well those precious times spent with friends.  I am blessed to have the friends, family and the life that I have.
Debbie,
Great insight. I know how tough it is to do the work continuously. Its so easy to let life get in the way.
Be well,
George
Thank you for your words of encouragement George.
Great work! You are in the early stages of learning new, good habits. It will become easier over time. You are uncovering who you really are! So exciting!